1st day of school.

Wow what a busy summer we have had..  We have had our youth pastor's Daughter with us the past few days and will have her for a few more and we had stayed busy.  3 is a lot different then 2 let me tell you.  These girls havent been bad it is just much more busy around our house these days.  

Today was the first day of school!  Last year Abby just went to school so I only had to wake up get her ready and then off to school.. I would always get Maddie dressed when we got back.  Today there where THREE kids to get ready.. I think we did pretty good!  

Not to bad! 

I wrote a blog to my girls about their first day of school here letters to my daughters if you would like to read it.

I can't help but have had the privilege to hug and kiss these three beautiful girls and send them off to school and think about all the Mommy's in Iraq that are fighting for their lives.  They are trying to survive and not be killed because they Love Jesus.  We are so blessed to live in a country that still has the freedom of religion.  I am so blessed to be able to boldly say I am a CHRISTIAN and not have my family killed horrible deaths right in front of my eyes.  I can't imagine the horror these babies and parents are going though as we speak!   

This isn't something people want to talk or think about because it isnt comfortable it isnt pretty to think about.  These news reports and pictures of beheaded children and parents crying over their lifeless body right before they themselves are killed is heartbreaking.  There was another picture with dozens of children's lifeless bodies with men around smiling and laughing.  What is happening is EVIL.  

Hug your kids a little tighter and say a prayer for the families who are being persecuted and killed for their faith.  Pray for the families wondering around in the dessert with no food or water just trying to escape and LIVE.  This is a travesty in our world today.  I truly wish there was more I could do for these precious people.  

The children being killed are not my children, but they are beautiful children all the same and are beautifully  and wonderful made  like these 3 beauties!

is it the heart or is it the tounge

Let the Words of my mouth and Meditation of my heart be good and acceptable in Your sight oh Lord my Strength and my redeemer.

How hard it is to control our tongue? Man it can be sooooo HARD.  I mean we are living in a world where people feel like they can say anything they want.  It is amazing to me how fast a hard situation can start simply because of words.  Our words come from out heart so is it any wonder that the heart and mouth are connected in this teaching.

When I really sit down and thing about it our problem isnt our mouth it is our heart.  It is a HEART issue.  Our words can give life or death in any situation.  If my words are constantly starting issues in multiple areas of my life I HAVE to look at my HEART and examine it.  What is in my heart that needs to be changed so that I can speak life in all situations.

My heart can lead me wrong but if I give my heart to the Lord and say change the things that need to be  changed then that makes a difference.  I have also come to find that I have to do this over and over.  I have to let the Lord examine my heart daily so that I can operate in Him.  I want to have the heart of the Lord so much.  I want to love like HE loves.  Instead of being annoyed and short I want to speak with compassion and gentleness.  I want His wisdom.  How can I have those things if I refuse to let Him change my heart.   When the Lord changes my heart it has to be evident in the words that come out of my mouth.

In the end my words are not the problem it is my heart.  I need to be more forgiving of others words and realize it is a heart issue and pray for them. Instead of responding to harsh words with more harshness I want to respond how the Lord would have me respond.  I want to represent Him.  I dont need to win every conversation.  Sometimes I just need to represent His patience.  Sometimes I just need to respond in love and kindness.  That will eventually put out all the fires.  Spraying more fire in a forest fire never did anyone any good.  It  just destroys families, homes, and anyone or anything it its path.

I am so thankful I have the Lord who can change my reactions and responses.  He can change my heart and help me be more like Him.  The more I seek Him the more I will find Him.  Lord be glorified in me and in my heart and words..

small voice

I wasn't going to share this, however, my husband shared this at church, so I decided I would as well. About a month ago I really felt like the Lord was urging me to go to the Skin Doctor and get a full body exam.  I decided to listen to that voice and made an appointment.  While I was there Dr. Heller found 2 spots of concern on my back.  He shaved parts off to biopsy.  

Eric instantly started googling the medicine I am on (to help with the MDS treatment).  He read that skin cancer is a very real side effect of the medicine I am taking.  While we were waiting for the results I discovered another spot during that time.  

Eric came with me as we got the results back from the 2 biopsy's.  Eric went into more detail the medicine I was on and the research he did on the drug.  Dr. Heller said the two spots he found were indeed pre cancer.  

Now with the knowledge of the common side effect I will be seen every month.  

The good news is I should only be on this medication for another month or so.  When I go off the medicine the risk of skin cancer goes back to normal.  

In a couple weeks the Dr is going to go back to those areas and basically cut them out.

I am so thankful to the Lord's still small voice that nudged me to get checked out.  He knows every detail of your body and soul.  Listen to HIS voice.  He will not lead you wrong.  Jesus is my savior. He is my best friend.  He cares about every detail.  He knows ALL things trust Him wherever He leads you!